He is in 8th place (out of 16 people left out of 7000 that entered) in the WSOP Main Event .Good Luck! You still owe me $20.
UPDATE - Ylon has advanced to the World Series Of Poker FINAL TABLE - 9 players competing for a first prize of 9 million dollars in November (he is in 5th place). And he still owe's me $20.
So far in week two, drug week, I have taken no drugs. Unless you include spraying Cutter insect repellent on my leg. I haven't even taken the obligatory hit of pot. The song and video due on Sunday has taken all time, energy, and will to live. The song is called 'One Ounce.' It is about how I buy pot. Drug trafficking to a beat kids! And I've learned one thing, you can't write a song about drugs when you are on drugs. I don't know this for an absolute fact because as I said I haven't actually tried. But the amount of sober energy it took me to write and begin recording and arranging is too much a strain to even imagine doing it stoned.
But you could say that when I woke up Monday morning to begin writing DRUG SONG I was kinda stoned from SEX WEEK. Wherein I actually had sex. Sort of.
Finished completing song and video last night at midnight despite numerous obstacles. Mainly the internet connection I leech off of a neighbor suddenly went sporadic, how dare they?
It was a crazy day and nothing sexy about it. Converting, compressing, editing, bouncing, digitizing, rendering doesn't exactly summon the spirit of Barry White. Then again neither does the song created for sex week. It turned very dark and creepy and the video goes even further in the same direction. When you to finish something like this in such limited time you have to commit though, there was no turning back once the wheels were in motion. Commit early and go onward is the only way. I had planned to rise at 9AM and wake and bake for the new week codenamed 'DRUGS.' I hadn't done that since I was 21 and actually still haven't cause when I woke up I had a song fragment in my head and decided to scrap the bong hit and record my idea. 15 minutes later I had a melody and some lyrics. That's it, new song, new week, now let's get high.
Here is the finished sex video from week 1 -
(whereby I diarize my immersion into the first of several mind altering states, this week is sex)
Had sex twice today. Funny how much sex is a physical workout. I felt pumped through my tri's, chest and abs afterward as we basked in the glow. I'm surprised no one has figured out a way to market a 'sex workout' book/tape yet. I mean they have shows where obese people run through hoops, eat water for breakfast lunch and dinner. Why does losing weight have to be grueling and painful? Even a masturbation workout could be fun...
"Kathy you fat pig drop to the floor and give me 50. Now stand up straight. Knees apart shoulder length. Right hand on breasts, left hand on pubis, counterclockwise rubbing, now give me 5 deep knee bends."
For the second sex act of the day we were doing it as 'Roots' played in the background. Don't ask. One of the most intense scenes in the series just happened to be running as we headed into the final stretch.
"What's your name?"
"Kunte Kinte"
"No, that's not your name! What's your name?"
(Whipping sounds)
"Your name is Toby!"
(More sounds of lashes)
"No, Kunte Kinte!"
"Dammit nigger what's your name!"
(Horrible lashings)
....."...Toby"
"I can't have sex with this on."
I don't know what was more disturbing, the fact that I was blocking it out or the fact that she was listening.
(whereby I diarize my immersion into the first of several mind altering states, this week is sex)
First thought was, alright what the hell am i doing? Sex week? i don't even have sex. ...
Second thought was. No porno allowed this week. Too easy.
Then I took the gf out to wine bar in Williamsburg (Cornichon), had a plate of meat and cheese some good wine, holding hands, romantic walk back to subway and then i spring it on her, so we're doing this sex thing right?
"What sex thing?"
"You know weekly song and video due. This week it's sex... I wink and nod. You remember I'm recording a song, I'm going to need material...."
"Good luck." she says.
To Be Continued

• New music videos every Sunday in July
• Xperimental songs shot from Route 66 in August
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With music now available with a single, offhand click, it's easy to forget that songs are not born whole, polished and ready to play.
They are created by artists who draw on some combination of craft, skill and inspiration.
How much of their work is influenced by their surroundings, by their 'normal' consciousness?
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Join musician Ben Warren as he intoxicates the brain through sex, drugs, alcohol, rage, and travel.
And then allows these altered states to guide him through two months of song and video creation.
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"The idea is to reach the unknown by the derangement of all the senses." - Rimbaud
Only @ Benwarrenmusic.com
Again siting near the window I notice
A tempermental breeze
Streaming over my small indoor garden
The avocado tree shivers
While absorbing the beneficial fresh air
We do not usually think of this
But our planted flowers
Need not only the sun and water
But also the feel of the wind
On their stems and branches.
You will say with some reason
That the breeze gives to them the taste of freedom
That they do not enjoy
After all, like domesticated animals
They miss the sway of the ancient jungles
During the storms, high winds
Which sliced through ancestral lands and forests
From whence came genetically their ancestors
We say commonly to each other "free as the wind"
Energy not harnessed to work our machines
Dont we laud the "breath of fresh air"
Because it is something ever new
In our repetitive workaday
Ô wind unstable, unpredictable, uncertain and at times dangerous
Keep on shifting our skies above us!
M: First of all, congrats on the continuation of your prolific output with the release of these three videos for The New York Stalker trilogy.
B: As I you. A toast to us stalkers...
M: Let's start with the songs themselves... can you tell me about writing the song "Broken Girl"
B: Sure, "Broken Girl" was written about my ex, Christina. We had a long and very dysfunctional relationship which was fertile soil for songwriting. She wanted marriage and kids and I wanted to be a rockstar...it became living hell from which we barely recovered. Actually, she recovered well enough to get married and have kids with another man.
M: So you wrote this while you were still in the relationship
with her?
B: Yes, she
actually liked the song. When I showed her the video, she loved it; she
said she knew it would take three girls to accurately portray
her. She
always hated you...
M: Yeah I think she suspected I was after you from the start. Maybe it was the skirt I was wearing when we first met.
B: Yes she knew something was up even then...she was like, "which skirt is it going to be - him or me?"
M: Well, I'd say you chose the right skirt.
B: My question to you is what made you think that song was ripe for video?
M: It immediately struck me as a very dramatic and intense song. There was a lot of self-loathing to the lyrics and the music itself was very dark - I liked how the song feels like it's building towards a certain doom, an inevitable bad ending of sorts. At least that’s the feeling the music and words kind of gave me. I liked it.
B: Well, yeah - the song becomes a self attack, I didn't want it to be a finger pointing song, so the chorus becomes more of a "you thought I'd save you from the wreckage of your life but guess again , I'm just as fucked up as you."
M: When I first described the plot of the video to you - that you would be walking around as a serial killer as we witness your prior victims being discovered - did you think "of course - that's perfect" or did it take some getting used to?
B: I thought, "Of course, that's perfect MATT," and I'm sure Christina thought the same thing... "that fucking pervert!"
M: There is
an odd use of our girlfriends and ex-girlfriends with this song and the
video project. You wrote the song about your ex Christina,
then in the
video you employed your current girlfriend Gina to
play a corpse that
gets dumped in a garbage heap. My ex Jen Rock played the first victim
and I have to give her credit and say Jen was totally essential to us
doing that video since she really liked the idea for it and agreed to
take on the task of handling the make-up.
B: Oh sure Gina and Jen were huge. And Jen really rocked the makeup, when you first hit me with the idea I remember her saying, "I want to be a dead girl!"
M: Well, she got her wish. Of the three videos we did - "Broken Girl" is the most pure horror. Were you concerned about being involved with something that could be viewed as misogynistic or hateful towards women
B: Not at
all, if you follow my career, through the What's Up Show and so on, you
can see a pattern emerging: a distaste for all that is feminine and an
interest revolving around seeing them made to suffer. Mom, goddamn you!
Goddamn you! No, in all honesty, I think creation is
creation. It has
nothing to do with all that PC shit....Were you afraid that you would
be considered anti woman?
M: I knew
people could misconstrue my intent or otherwise think me a creep for
making such a video, but what do I have to lose? People see
what the
want to see. I have my own values and beliefs and they're not always
going to necessarily be reflected by what I create. It really helped to
have the support of our girlfriends with the project in that regard -
their "being OK" with the material was definitely a vote of confidence
to me in moving forward. But really, at the end of the
day, I don't
think when you watch "Broken Girl" you get a feeling of "yeah, man,
strangle that bitch!" The video's not an experience for the
viewer to
vicariously experience the thrill of stalking and/or killing.
But this
raises an interesting question in terms of the material, do you have
any stalker in you when you walk the streets of NYC? Like have you ever
found yourself following a woman that you're attracted to?
B: YES. I
can literally walk the streets for hours behind a woman who looks
particularly good from the back. I just watch though - I don't touch!
It is the best free entertainment in the world - just follow a
beautiful girl... WAIT that rhymes -
M: Well this segues nicely into the second song of the trilogy - "Seen a Girl." How long have you had that song kicking around your catalog of tunes?
B: Since you rejected it from God The Band!
M: Oh, is that true?
B: Don't you remember I was playing it to you and Danny Rockett in the kitchen of our house in Hatfield, PA. Everyone liked it but some were afraid it didn't "fit."
M: Hm... I don't remember that, but even so, I don't think the song would have fit with the GTB mold, if there was one. But Danny did write some similarly themed love-song tripe that managed to make the grade. I'd say it probably didn’t get picked because we didn’t want you taking over the band, Ben. We were God The Band - not Flies of the Marketplace.
B: Ouch. Well, regardless I always liked that song and was thrilled when you expressed interest in making a video for it.
M: Well, I liked the song, too, though it's not the kind of thing I would normally gravitate towards in adapting it for music video.
B: Right, it's a Beatlesy, happy thing...
M: Exactly - and it could make for a Beatlesy, cutesy sort of video if you wanted to play it safe. It’s obvious when you hear the song that you’re being sincere – it's a sweet and heartfelt little ditty. There isn’t that level of menace or twisted irony that comes off in the video.
B: Did you find some parallels between that song and "Broken Girl"?
M: No, not really. I wasn’t really seeking to make those types of connections at any point. I mean, there was a thematic connection between the ideas, but it wasn't originally worked up as a trilogy of stalker incidents. It wasn’t like “ok, we have Ben as a serial killer, now let’s see what he’s like with his mother and so on.” I think as it happened I had volunteered to work up some music video ideas for some of the songs off some of your albums and “Seen a Girl” one came out of one of those brainstorming sessions. I still have the little piece of paper where i wrote out the idea for it. Originally you were supposed to be accompanied by a trio of black female back-up singers as you were stalking your mom. Kind of a “Little Shop of Horrors” touch.
B: Damn! I miss that idea...oh
is that mysogonistic?
M: No,
actuallly, it was out of budget. But that’s fine - if we did
have the
resources to shoot the back-up singers for the video, it would have
taken on a higher level of camp which would probably have been too
cutesy for my taste. The way it ended up, it’s a somewhat
unsettling
video – especially with the revelation that this poor old
woman you’re
following around is your mother.
B: Who do you like in terms of horror directors?
M: Well, i think what Polanski did with the genre is somehwat unparalleled - he's easily one of my film gods, both in terms of horror and otherwise. I do like some of the Italian directors like Fulci and Argento, but they run the gamut from brilliant to just bad. You kind of need to check your brain at the door when watching that kind of stuff. It's funny - we acknowledged all these horror films that the trilogy was "paying homage" to when we sent out the press release and really, the only one with any real direct point of reference to me is John Carpenter's Halloween with all those shots of Michael Meyers stepping into frame... seeing "the shape" ominously juxtaposed against wide shots of unsuspecting victims going about their business. That stuff still gives me chills.
B: I love John Carpenter too, I just watched "The Thing" which I borrowed from you a few weeks ago and it's just amazing, gets better with age actually...someone just recently told me that the movie Halloween was shot in just a few weeks. I was like "you have got to be kidding..."
M: I
notice you've written a lot of songs with the word "girl" in the title.
Was "Seen a Girl" always a standalone piece or did you write it as a
companion piece to something else.
B: It was
written as its own song. I remember (surprisingly enough)
seeing a
girl on a bus and it was just love at first sight. It's weird isn't it
how you can love the way a person looks and imagine what they are like
and what personality they will have just by their features and
expressions? You construe their intellect, their values...it's so cool,
none of the bother of actually really going through a messy
relationship.
M: So true - from that standpoint I'm the biggest slut of New York City.
B: Right. For me, who is generally a voyeur, that's how i exist. I go through a 5 year relationship in 30 seconds, come in my pants and then I transfer to the L train.
M: OK moving on.... "Like You Do" sounds deceptively simple at first - like a basic rock blues riff but it goes off somewhat unexpectedly in the lead-in to the chorus - was this something that came natural to you in the writing or did you go through a lot of trial and error in getting it to sound right?
B: I like that part - it actually came easily to me when I was writing it chord-wise, but the lyrics took longer. But back to the blues riff, you know something weird, when I was learning guitar I would go into this guitar shop to play some amps. I was really young and this guy was playing just a blues vamp, the same as the first few notes of that song, and I was totally captivated, bum bum bum... I was standing in the middle of the music shop transfixed. I looked at his fingers to try to learn from sight what he was doing, and I STILL LOVE the sound of just the simplest blues chords...but I loathe the 'chicago' blues.
M: Right
well you use that standard blues riff as a sort of springboard - you
abandon it pretty quickly and that's where the song gets interesting.
One thing that really sticks out to me with "Like You Do" is the
production - the song sounds really amazing as it swells up to the
chorus.
B: Two words, no three...Caleb "KBC" Sherman - he produced it.
M: You guys
have quite a history together as performers from the "What's Up" band
and as musical collaborators afterwards. What exactly is his role in
producing a song like "Like You Do?"
I gave
him "Like You Do" with NOTHING - just the chords and no vocals. He gave
it back to me LIKE THAT! It's scary...he should be the
stalker!
M: So you didn't really play any of the instruments on that song?
B: Nada. Nothing. Nil. Netay.
M: Wow, how very Monkees of you.
B: I excel at taking undeserved credit. But that build-up to the chorus, in the video you have that shot panning up to all the photographs on the wall - truly a moment. What was your inspiration there?
M: My inspiration was basically "wouldn't that look cool?" I don't think I was consciously lifting anything out of a specific film or anything like that. Really, the inspiration, in this case, would be the music - it has a wonderfully demented build-up right there. I thought that would be wicked to kind of mirror the dementia of the music with a simultaneous reveal of the frightening extent of your character's obsession. Can you tell me what the song is really about?
B: Russ Irwin! Russ was a member of the semi-legendary underground comedy troupe Whats Up with me and Jason Paige. Now he's playing keys with Aerosmith. He went on to fame and fortune as I collapsed in the corner. So you have the makings of a pop song right there: jealousy, regret, envy. He goes everywhere, tours all over the world making bank, as I read online tutorials about how to legally rob banks...so I tried to make the song about hanging out with him, but as three people: me, him and my jealousy.
M: Are you still jealous of his success?
B: I'm positively livid! Leaving our cable show to join Aeorosmith! Ha, but I am that single minded - I was like 'what about the public access show!' The song really taps into that childlike sort of world revolves around me thing, i don't think I'm that envious now though...10 years later...I imagine his life probably has just as many pluses and minuses as mine....that MOTHERFUCKER!
M: Well to me the video, if not the song, is about self-obsession as much as it is about your preoccupation with the subject. That’s why it translated well into this idea of you stalking yourself. Did you realize that the whole idea of this video was to mock you and your self-importance as an artist?
B: Sorry to say that I've lost all feelings of self-importance a long long time ago, I've gone from wanting to take over the world to wanting to take out the trash...c'mon Matt admit it, you're jealous of my awesome talent!
M: Well i remember recording the RAWK! album with GTB and having to concede that you could play that one guitar riff in "latch key kids" better than me - but i don't know if I was jealous really. More frustrated with the limits of my abilities.
B: I'll take that as a simmering pool of unxpressed envy. We'll use that for the NEXT video, but with "Like You Do"...did you storyboard that video out?
M: I didn't write out a shotlist or phsyically draw storyboards - it only leads to humiliation and mockery when people see my ragged stick figures and ask "what the hell is that?" But it was mentally storyboarded - I had nearly every shot and edit worked out beforehand, especially in the first half and that happens from listening to the song over and over again, envisioning the video as the song plays out. That's a very exciting time for me because there's no limits at that point - only what your mind can conjure.
B: Did you run into any major problems during shooting aside from needing a better looking star?
M: Hell no, Ben - I like the way you look - I'd much rather work with someone who has interesting features than just another pretty face.
B: Oh fuck off!
M: The biggest problem with the "Like You Do" shoot was the limited time we had to do it. We did all three videos over a 4 day weekend in September and "Like You Do" was the last video we shot and so it was foolishly relegated to one day of production.
B: Right. Three days of the condor. What would you change if you could?
M: Well I just think a lot of shots are below my standard of what passes for good. The end product and the video that was in my mind were two different things. The video we ended up with isn't bad, it's just compromised. And this is very much due to the fact that we were cramming everything in to one day - we had to keep things moving forward so my standard was lowered from "that's good" to "that's good enough."
B: Sure but
I think everyone thinks that...John Carpenter probably still doesn't
like that looney bin parking lot shot in Halloween either.
M: So back to writing about your jealousy, did this translate to you at
all when making the video?
B:
Well sure, I mean putting a visual to an abstract feeling in a song is
always settling on a particular choice and I thought this choice -
stalking myself - was a bold and interesting choice so i thought it was
going to be fun
to see
what we ...WE came up with. I still don't think
anyone watching the video will really follow it like a linear story
which is fine. It's like all those videos we used to watch at the
beginning of MTV that they spent so much time trying to make a story
and basically kids just kinda glazed over and bopped along oblivious.
M:
I
like story-driven music videos - they're much more interesting to me
than "let's shoot the band playing in 10 different locations and cut it
together." Blah.
B: During the shoot, I
saw a
different side of you - you
were relaxed and precise with things. I'd like to see you directing
much more, actual TIME doing thing after thing. You were in the zone.
M: Well thanks for that, though I’m of the opinion that if it’s a good shoot and the director is being clear with his vision and the actors are comfortable and doing good work, then there has to be a good crew supporting the whole endeavor. This shoot was definitely a success because of the people who were supporting the project by volunteering their time to do it.
B: How crucial was Bowls
MacLean?
M:
Oh absolutely crucial! And not just because he was lending us
his
VX100-B camera to the cause. I think his presence definitely helped
keep me relaxed because of our own history from working together. There
wasn't any tiptoeing around our egos when it came time to do the thing,
which makes everything flow much better. Bowls
also has good suggestions and keeps a keen eye out for things that I
might be too distracted to notice. It couldn't have been done without
him.
B: You need more things to direct, check out fuckben.com for more songs!
M: It seems there's a disparity between what these songs were about or where you were mentally when you wrote them - do you feel that now when watching the videos?
B: Not really...whenever you draw something in the sand, through a song or a video, you know all those thoughts or feelings are going to change, except with anti-Bush songs! Feelings are fleeting, get em down and move on...so what are you going to do now?
M: I don't have anything in the queue production-wise - just trying to get more people to see the stuff that's already done like Family Tie and the stalker trilogy. But I'm working on a feature length horror film screenplay which has been getting kicked around the noggin for a few years now, so hopefully that will take some shape in the months to come.
B: What's the film about?
M:
It's
about a bunch of 20-somehting adults living in Brooklyn who are getting
murdered for other people's amusement - basically a post-modern slasher
film for a hip young audience. It's
a hipster bloodbath.
B: Well living in
Greenpoint must be great for inspiration.
M: Yeah i'm in the thick of it. I'd love to try something non-violent, non-dark one of these days but you know, they say, "write what you know" and that kind of stuff never comes naturally to me. And what about yourself - what's next on your agenda?
B: Gotta play live more, probably do solo shows with a twist...recording an album with Caleb Sherman called "C The Deuce" about a white guy who has a 'race-change operation to launch a career in the entertainment industry, and I still have 10 songs on my hard drive that I'm calling a "new album." but in actuality I've been recording it for years.... It sucks to be constipated.
M: But it seems like you usually have a few things going on simultaneously - you let projects simmer so that the flavor is all the richer when it's ready to be served.
B: And i want to collaborate with you MATT!
M: You want to do everything like I do.
B:
Ha.
M: Well, let's start with this new album - any good stalker material for me to run with?
B: Only if I’m stalking myself.






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